I can't make you love me....

An old acquaintance called me up in the morning....surprise, surprise !
After hours of talk, suddenly, she started singing the George Michael song...

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize
Don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me If you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart, and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't

I'll close my eyes and then I won't see
The love you do not feel, when you're holding me
Morning will come, and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then, to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

And I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
And here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no, you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't

Ain't no use in you trying
It's no good for me baby without love
All my tears, all these years, everything I believed in
Baby
Oh yeah
Someone's gonna love me


....and I was touched. Touched - because of what she had to offer - love ?!

I was however, too focussed on my studies at this moment....doing my Fin Stmt Analysis assignment. She asked me to visit this Dec ...well, and I had to decline. Not that I meant to be rude to her but because of my current status in this country. I am on H1 transferring to F1. If I get out of this country, I would have to get passport stamped.

Anyways, there was a huge geographical incompatibility in anything about this relationship. It cannot exist. Moreover, we had met just half a dozen times. I always saw that in her eyes and in her communication. However, it never crossed my mind that it would be something beyond that.

I was vulnerable when she sang it....since I am single, 24, away from family for more than 17 months now and not seeing anyone these days due to study committments. However, key learnings and experience teaches me that I need to be far more discreet and rational. This nature of relationship had no future and though it would keep occupied (waste time on GTalk! and raise my Reliance India phone bills for both of us) it didn't make sense to continue.

Moreover, if she goes one step ahead and becomes a little bit more outgoing, she would get a thousand gentlemen who would be a better fit. I failed to understand this coming up after such a long time... !